I found myself analysing my daily routine and the stuff a mother has to do that nobody takes notice of. I longed for something I could do just for myself. I’m sure every mom out there asks this question some or other time. Of course during my contemplation I asked God (as we mostly do with these deep questions): Why is it that you can’t just tell us what to do – something that a mom can do without losing touch with her kids. There are so many options. Which route do we take? Something that takes very little time so we can still be with our kids, but that is very fulfilling of course. A tall order! These days most moms have a job! Married or not. And they have to scurry around like crazy to make ends meet. You’re in control. Why can’t you make it easier for moms?
I know I know, it was rhetorical alright?
But guess what. I did get an answer!
It came booming into my ears, AUDIBLY! I’ve never had such an experience before and you can think I’m crazy … think what you want but listen to this. It will change your life forever as it has mine over the last few years.
This was the answer:
“I can not tell you what to do. You have to choose what you want to do and I will support you along the way. It is called free will.”
Whaaaaaat? Did that rattle your cage? It sure rattled mine. I have to choose? How can I have to choose? Don’t I have a destiny? I thought. It’s Your mysterious way or the highway! We are forever being told to seek first the kingdom of God! And now You say I must choose? I want what You want! I was being rather disrespectful I guess.
Nevertheless, I was slapped with full comprehension – instantly. It was not a pretty sight, but I have it now. YES! You have to choose. You see, I am (just like you are) preparing to actually exercise my new found free will.
The free will you never knew you had.
I have now learned about real free will. The kind of free will I never knew I had. I am sure many don’t realise the extent of this free will that they have. It is scary and overwhelming but extremely intriguing. I learned or rather realised that this is a truth that was obfuscated for a very long time. I suppose one could imagine that such free will in the wrong hands could wreak havoc. In fact, it is a natural law that was put in place in ‘the beginning’. I had it all the time. You have it too. Perhaps, like me you just didn’t realise the extent of it. Do you know how it works? REAL Free will?
Here’s what I understand. I can choose whatever I like! I love! I enjoy thoroughly, because I know I will be supported.
How will I be supported? I don’t know. And I’m not supposed to care! You see if you experienced what I experienced, you will know and have the understanding that you will be supported in supernatural ways;
- that you don’t need to care about it;
- that it will always be enough, all the time;
- that you simply have to ask and it will be given;
- that it doesn’t matter how it happens because you can rest assured that it will be incorporated within your dream life and that it will flow like water.
My head was spinning.
I understand now. You have to step out in faith. The kind of faith that is blind. (The kind of faith your mother warned you about. 🙂 just kidding) The kind of faith I am now encouraging you to take with a sober mind. It is only when you take that first step that you will see the next rock appear below your foot that will stop you from plunging into deep waters.
You have to know that you will be carried through … step by step.
I understood that the first step is …
Make a decision.
Forever and a day I thought I must look out for signs that will guide me to my destiny. I distinctly remember embarking on a journey creating a specific venture and interesting synchronicities happening that made me think ‘I’ve found my destiny’! And then when it didn’t work out I would really wonder what happened? It was so clear and so obvious. Why didn’t it work out and why did it stop? Now I know that those were merely there for me because I made a decision – the support coming through. And when I started doubting, things happened for it not to work out – because how can I get support when I’m not sure where I am going? It was me! All ME! I doubted. I changed my mind! My desires and thinking was sloppy!
That hit me right between the eyes. I felt like I had been shocked right into another dimension! Have you ever had that? You have to make a solid decision. Wow. This needs more discussion and exploration.
I’m going to start a forum where moms like me can chat about our lives as moms. Where we can just be ourselves and can laugh and enjoy the wonder of this life. Where we can explore the infinite possibilities lying before us because we have discovered who we really are. If you’re such a mom and you’d like to share the wonders of this discovery and learn and teach other moms … subscribe to my newsletter so you don’t’ miss when our very own, very special, very private forum is ready!
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